2013 blasted off at a blink of an eye. I found myself constantly flipping through 2013 calendar in disbelief that time passes at such an alarmingly fast rate. In the occasion of welcoming the new year, it suddenly strucked me that I should let go of what's good or bad in 2013 by writing out the things that have been buried deep in my heart.
The most arduous lesson I've learnt in 2013 was to "give and take". I have come to realise that throughout my entire life,I've been giving too much to receive what I should deserve. Have always been the case of loving someone so much that I lost myself- loving myself. Initially, I didn't have the courage to stand up and walk away from this relationship despite being abused repeatedly. And it hurts me equally to know I'm so deeply in love with him. I still get nightmares of him laying his hands on me, and I turned out crying through the night as the trauma still hits me hard now and then.
There were still times I am really fond of - I will definitely miss waking up next to you while pulling you out of bed to see you flipping through the newspaper at the living room's sofa as I lie beside you wishing the world could stop for us. I will miss everything we once shared. It's like extracting a knife out of the heart, that immense pain and irreparable wound. Moments when the club played "City of Dreams" , I have no control of my tears as my mind starts to fill up with you. But I know it's time to leave everything here and move on because I'm done being foolish and blinded by love. Wish me luck for 2014, it's gonna be a year packed of activities and work.
Attended swap and shop flea sponsored by J cube and Gushcloud, thankful to have Jovin with me early in the morning to set up the booth. Sometimes I wonder how I'll do without her, the person who understand me the best, someone I can't live without.
Happy that Gushcloud always put an effort to allocate me next to Kife! Managed to earn and clear quite a bit from my pile of clothes by selling it at unreasonably cheap prices.
Current eargasm I wanna share with you guys, it's recommended by Don. Thank you because I got addicted to this song!
XOXO
